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Blog 11/17/09
Everyone comes to a point in their life
that they realize some things should have
gone differently. You think why couldn't
I see this then? Why did I choose to
turn left when I should have chose to
keep going straight? The only thing that
keeps me from smacking myself in the
head is that I have learned so much from
those mistakes. More than I could have
learned staying on the same path!! It's
those mistakes, slip ups, lies, tragic
events that build a person up to who they
are today. Yea I could have choose to
react differently and I could have shut
my mouth but what would I have
accomplished, living the same life like
always......That life is why I chose the
paths I did!!

What is the point of sitting back waiting
for things to change when you know deep
down the only thing that will change them
will be life altering...That fear will make
people do things that are unbelievable or
unimaginable!!!! I feel I'm back now to the
Shannon I was before the influences
before the drugs and partying before life
happened!!! The Shannon that I so
desperately wanted back but had no idea
where she went!!! Or why she ran so far
away, what was she so afraid of....I
think I was afraid to show exactly how
hurt I really was...it's easier to put on
a smile cause then no one asks questions!!
You say you are fine and people believe
you, then they eventually stop asking and
that made me feel like the problem was
gone but it was not....nothing would ever
make those events go away and all I had
to do was accept it and move forward!!
Why was that so hard for me???  

I am who I am because of the mistakes
and bad choices I have made in my past;
everything negative has made me a
stronger positive person now in the
present! Who knew you had to mess up so
bad to learn so much!!! I know what life
path I want and what will make me happy
in life now, the thought that I might not
get what I want kills me inside.......in
the end no one to point the finger
at....just another lesson learned